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August 9th, 2011 (06:53 am)

Sorry I haven't been as active on here as I used to be. I've just been doing 90 billion other things and my internet presence has suffered. I'm going to go out on a limb and say that's not such a bad thing. I've been drawing and creating a lot more. Even though I am allowed to go online at work again, I've been choosing not to. I might check my email or whatever but I prefer using that time to draw, write, etc. Putting that much more focus on my art has proven beneficial.

I've also been on a quest for personal betterment. I'm drinking less soda, exercising again, and making baby step towards personal improvement that I have been neglecting. It feels good.

Everyone and everything has been annoying the shit out of me though. Almost every conversation and interaction. I know its just me and the shit going on in my head so I am working diligently to not take it out on my loved ones and friends. BlackRock actually snapped at me about it. I didn't reply. He apologized for snapping at me and then we were quiet. He asked me about some things that have been bothering me. His concern isn't without cause. I just don't know if there are words for the mess in my head right now. I am trying though. That has to count for something, right?

Hmmm... wish I had more to share. Nightmares, work, stress, and drawing pictures is a pretty accurate description of everything. I miss living in Florida. I'm not going to be able to get my things from Denver this year. My wrist has been hurting me lately. Oh, in my dream last night I was at a concert hall that only exists in my dream world called OMalley's. I know there are clubs, bars, etc in the real world with that name but this one is exclusive to my dream scape. After a show I couldn't find BlackRock or anyone else I knew so I started walking around the venue. I even went outside to see who I could find. I didn't find a person, I found a kitten. I named it Omalley after the bar and the cat in the Aristocats. He was solid gray with no markings or variations in his fur colouring and he had gray eyes. Then I woke up. But for about 5 minutes of dream time I had a beautiful kitten that I wasn't allergic to. It was rather pleasant.

I guess I need to go do other things now.

Ciao.